Amphibian – Laura Boyle


I’m an amphibian, cold-blooded; I just forget it sometimes.

I am a seventeen-year-old student, journalist, and aspiring poet. I use poetry to explore the full range of colours and sounds of the human experience; I delve into the topics that scare me most. I hope my poem finds a home in each reader.

Amphibian


Healing is a lake, and it’s a cold November day.


I feel the sand part beneath me as I stand on that border,

That static purgatory of liminality makes me shiver

Preemptively; I can’t dive in.


I feel the water steal the warmth of my brave toes;


Frightened, I recoil like a grasshopper, springing back onto solid ground.

The perpetual, vast wetness is the stillest whirlpool I’ve ever seen.


Still,


The anchorage of hope tugs me in,


Unwilling.


The torso is the worst part;


In feverish anticipation of the icy pain that begets the numbness,

I hesitate, searching for hands to pull me in.


The only hand that grabs back is my reflection.


The sky fills my ears and the clouds enter my lungs as I reteach myself how to

Breathe.


I’m an amphibian, cold-blooded; I just forget it sometimes.


I’m spinning upside-down in water or air,


Head hit by an asteroid, feet throbbing, disoriented.


Am I flying, or am I simply surrounded by the damp, frosty reflection Of the blotted sky?


I wish I could jump in the cerulean water head-first,


But for now, I’m taking tentative steps into the unknown,

Drowning until I believe I can swim.


Healing is a lake, and one day I will be the Loch Ness Monster.

Laura Boyle

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